its a date!

So after much wait, debate, waking up late, and a bit of fate, it's a date. This morning, I showed up at work and they were mowing the pristine front lawn (pray tell, only this institution could have a pristine front lawn in the downtown core). The smell was intoxicating. A first whiff at summer, happiness, relief, change, EXHILARATION! (Girly insert: Green grass inspired the purchase of a funky new green bag, now dubbed 'the frog', later in the day)

I'll miss smiling faces left behind for sure (and the tiny gift bugs). But for now, no sadness, I just want to bask in the here and now, in the joy of balanced mutuality: me wanting something and it wanting me back. To smell the bliss of being what I have wanted to be for the past three years, if not my whole life.