Die hard

1) I'm social smoker, easy to quit, yet... Nonetheless, I haven't really smoked in the past 2 weeks, partly due to a weird cold, partly due to wanting to quit and to that 'grossed' out feeling you get when you light a cigarette after a while off the wagon. Tonight, unfortunately, my taste for nicotine returned, as did my taste for Lillet, and my distaste for school b.s.
2) Tonight, I also decided (since I had to face school b.s.) to follow bf's and my book's (Quelqu'un d'autre) example of pleasing oneself and to eat whatever the hell I wanted to for dinner. This sounds silly, but seriously, to eat whatever I wanted to, with no worries as to price, balancing veggies, carbs, calories, etc. I had me the weirdest combination of things, yet every bite was heaven. Kalamata olives (how I miss you, my darlings!) served in my authentic Portuguese olive dish, a big glass of cold Lillet, green salad (just the romaine lettuce with a ginger-soy dressing), a whole wheat/flax bagel, hot, with cream cheese, Highliner fish sticks, and a fudgesicle. Am now going to look at new IKEA catalogue and ring bf to tell him I want babies with him (did I mention I was on Lillet glass no.2?)
3) Two people have mentioned shacks in the middle of nowhere to me today, and let me tell you, right now, that thought is pretty darn appealing.