Big shiny Isa-light

I am so impressed when someone understands me better than I can ever hope to understand myself (just like others must be impressed when I uncover their Caramilk secrets and call them on their crap) .
What I know, for sure is: I am confused. I am not 100% ready to love someone, no matter how utterly remarkable and so very very good hearted and adorable this little critter is. I was very bad. I'm sorry. I want to be the very best that I can be for that future love. For whatever it is worth, Red Delicious (ie little critter) makes me want to be a good person.

As Meg Ryan would say (and I would say to .exe) : "Why weren't you the one, Charlie? The one who turned on this big shiny Kate-light that burns so bright?"

Enough.