Endless

Surprise Surprise! Mr .exe has just turned into a real-life human with real-life needs and feelings. He has come to the conclusion that his life as a mortal cannot be denied or altered (at least for the time being, he still holds out hope for the future), and that he should just make the best of it. Now, could this be a real change, due to some transcendental or mystical revelation from the Beyond, or am I just being fooled by a temporary state of boredom on his part (TV just ain't doing it for him?)

Knee deep in Keisler, I am once again struck by this image of his Endless House, and how it seems so à propos to my situation...

You have to close one book in order to open another, right? How come I am reading two at the same time?! Because I instigated it, that is why...silly me had to go send .exe a gratuitous 'declarative' email. I was really not expecting anything from this...I just had to let it out, tell him how I felt, confront him with the fact that I was still in love with him, throw my emotions in his face, and test t(his) limit in order to surpass (ie overcome) it. But see, the expected break point (ie him running like the wind or telling me to fuck off) did not happen, and he responded to my provocation with similar 'affections' (if we can call them that in MSN). Totally unconclusive an experiment, further tests are required. Now I will have to go for coffee or 'something' with .exe... Hmm, this could be dangerous...